Behind Closed Doors
You can find freedom, it's up to you.Everybody talks about the journey, but what they don't like to talk about is the overwhelming pre-journey time, when you feel so frustrated, defeated and too weak to ever be able to do anything about it. I was in denial for years, I put off changing because I thought I did not have to. I had convinced myself that I was alright and in my little world, behind closed doors, I was. But I was missing so much. I lived in an apartment, but I barely saw beyond my bedroom--I lived in there; ate, went to the bathroom, bathed, all in that little room and while I was in there wasting away, the world was going on and I was missing so much.
I needed to change, not just to make things easier for myself, but to save my life. People want to lose weight for so many reasons, to fit into a dress for a wedding, to get into a bathing suit by summer, to show your sibling or friend that you can be smaller than them. For me, it was a matter of life and death, and I had to realize that the weight needed to come off one pound at a time and it would take some time, but it was worth it, the result would be both beneficial and advantageous to me and I would not only get to live, but the quality of my life would be so much better. People ask me all of the time how I did it, how does somebody lose 700 pounds? It was not easy, but I'll tell you one thing you need whether you are needing to lose several hundred or just twenty pounds--you have to believe in yourself and you have to love yourself enough to know you deserve the end result--life and happiness. |
I know what it's like to feel helpless, hopeless and defeated all at the same time.Everybody talks about the journey, but what they don't like to talk about is the overwhelming pre-journey time, when you feel so frustrated, defeated and too weak to ever be able to do anything about it. I was in denial for years, I put off changing because I thought I did not have to. I had convinced myself that I was alright and in my little world, behind closed doors, I was. But I was missing so much. I lived in an apartment, but I barely saw beyond my bedroom--I lived in there; ate, went to the bathroom, bathed, all in that little room and while I was in there wasting away, the world was going on and I was missing so much.
I needed to change, not just to make things easier for myself, but to save my life. People want to lose weight for so many reasons, to fit into a dress for a wedding, to get into a bathing suit by summer, to show your sibling or friend that you can be smaller than them. For me, it was a matter of life and death, and I had to realize that the weight needed to come off one pound at a time and it would take some time, but it was worth it, the result would be both beneficial and advantageous to me and I would not only get to live, but the quality of my life would be so much better. People ask me all of the time how I did it, how does somebody lose 700 pounds? It was not easy, but I'll tell you one thing you need whether you are needing to lose several hundred or just twenty pounds--you have to believe in yourself and you have to love yourself enough to know you deserve the end result--life and happiness. These pants were were a size 98 waist.
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